OH MY GOD!!! Just within these three weeks 5 of my friends walked down the aisle to proudly announce their "I DO"s leaving me almost with a heart attack and blood rush of anxiety (?), horror (!) and "OMG"s... MARRIED... Some even already have 2-3 kids!!! Turning 21 was easy. Life was just beginning. Boys came and went. Turning 25 was getting a little bit intense...Less boys came and more boys went... Turning 26 started to light up the RED signal of my life as a CRITICAL warning that half a century has gone by and living the singleton life has lost the sweetness and welcoming the bitterness of the possibility it's all i'm gonna have for the rest of my life!!!
I WELCOME MYSELF (and other 26 year old single women) to the AGE OF THE OLD SPINSTER...!
WHo would have known that this popular kid in school having to go through infinite number of boyfriends and crushes would be the last one to settle down. Yeah, i had my golden time, having tremendous amount of love letters and secret admirers that got my mom worried the whole time i was naggin on the phone with my boys. And now, as that era passed by too quicky, i put another worry in my mother's mind... "my daughter's gonna be an old spinster with 30 cats!!!" From the first boyfriend (I was 11 when i had a first official bf) to the first broken heart (at 15, clueless and too hopeful) to the first dates and adventures... i became this confident dear girl who never worried about being alone. I knew someday i would find a soulmate, one who's tall, rich and handsome (you know, the whole package) and that i have all the right stuff to get all that. Yeah, undoubtly all my boyfriends in the past had at least 1 of all the qualities but i always wanted more... Leaving them, moving on to the next...wash, rinse, repeat... i never quite found the ONE person i saw a future with... i never had enough...
And this weird greed has put me in the place i am now. NOONE is ever good enough. I forgot that at 15-25, time seem to stop. And after 25, gosh... there must be less than 30 seconds in one minute... time just rushes through... And the "noone is ever good enough" principle... well... backfired!!! The thing is that, ladies... always... ALWAYS remember when you're young, the BEST species of men approaches you... you know the older guys with career, credit cards, cars, cash and condos (The Ultimate 5Cs) and as you enter the (other half of your life) e
ra, the ONLY ones that want you would be the teenagers with raging hormones, the innocent species of men that only knows fairytale love, ignorant of what's really out there.So young guys want OLD women and older guys want YOUNG girls fresh from the market!!! Am i still qualified as young through the eyes of 40+ year old men...?
What is in store for us, the "older women??" A lonely life ahead? Or is there still a chance to put ourselves out there, in hopes of the "older" prince charming who, as much as us are also still in search of his bride, despite the lost time? Or should our wait be put to a stop and our lives be dedicated to career and cats...?
I for one, wont settle for less. Yeah okay, all my friends are married, giving birth... living the family life already, but this wont be the reason for me to say YES to the next guy when he pops the question just because of the "FEAR" of living life alone... I, representing the single 26 year olds am still HOPEFUL in this search of love. It may not be today, tomorow, may not be the guy next door or at the next state... May not even be the man i knew from my past...One person kept reminding me that someone, somewhere at the other side of this world loves me... and I am proud to be a single 26 year old woman with this hope to hold on to... So what if im a corpse in a wedding dress??? Oh and yes, focusing on career instead of men is a good option too... at least this will get you somewhere... xD
p/s : Well i was exagerrating bout the corpse... this image is freakin scary but you get my point :P
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