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1986 my family moved to Liverpool, England, where I learned to walk, talk, and read. My first language was English, and my first school was Christchurch primary school. i don't remember much about the three years growing up in the UK except for a teacher who likes to kidnap me while I was running around naked in the Gym, and put me on display for his "grown up" students in his class. (yes, apparently being 3 years old, you only get to wear your underwear during gym). My best friend was some girl named Collet, and i have learned to read at the age of three.
in 1989 i returned to Melaka, Malaysia and did not know a word of Malay. I even spoke English to my Grandmother and she was like "whaaaa...???" I thought we were going to live in the jungle (see, in Liverpool where I lived there weren't so many tress..." and was terrified at the thought. I ate rambutan for the first time and i thought I was in heaven. The fruits tasted so much better than apples and strawberries...! At the age of 5 I went to primary school and the teacher was impressed i could already read. And i was scared of buffaloes, I thought they were Minotaurs... And i also thought I was English... so nevermind...
1990 my brother was born and i got so irritated i made a decision to hate him all my life.
A year later I moved to Kedah, North of Malaysia and i had no clue what people were talking about. I felt funny that schooldays were on Sunday to Thursday (I actually thought i was on another planet) and i entered the time of my life where as a kid, i knew i annoyed everyone around me but i couldn't help it.
In 1994 I moved to England, again. This time I lived in Loughborough, Leicester. Ahh... the memories. I can actually remember all 367 days being in the UK. I had my first boyfriend at the age of 11. I went on adventures from houses to houses. And I had a blast every single day of school. Loughborough was when I reliazed I was alive, though that's when my hair decided to become greasy and curly but i was still innocent, pretty with huge teeth. I started to like my sister a bit. We became closer friends and told each other secrets instead of calling each other names.
One year of bliss, back to thinking I was English again, I returned to Kedah. This time I still remembered Malay, basically coz in UK the second time i was closer with Malay friends instead of English. And I was Miss Popular in school, having just returned from the UK and having admirers from every class and being the Teacher's daughter. Life was fun at 11-12. I remember having an enemy who that time also "just returned from" the US but she turned out to be my best friend. I hated the US. I was like, UK is waaaaaay better than US. We have more class... ;) Being Miss popular somehow did not get me the boys I liked. I had a crush on this older dude in high school but i guess he was the one that got away. I had my first love at the age of 15 with some other boy with a lot of hair. Trust me, he was almost qualified to be a yeti. But yeah, it was love :) we broke up 3 times before i moved away. My sister cruela moved away to college and we wrote letters...! and we became best friends just for that :)
In 2000 I moved to Tampin, South of Malaysia. I was Miss popular for like 2 months before the isolataion era. This was the time where friendship had a whole different meaning. I learned about backstabbings and judgementalists. I lived a broken heart for a year before I had good, awesome friends of different races. My high school life wasn't so bad. I learned a lot. I was anti-guys. I became a true-feminist. I hated the thought of having a boyfriend. I was heartless. But high school was sure as hell, funny. Oh and i decided not to hate my brother anymore. We became friends but he still annoys me. (i found out he even cut off my head in photos, like a voodoo thing)
2002 opened the door of college and pre-adult life. I moved to Port Dickson, only a mere hour away from home. Surprisingly, during my acne-face era, i had an admire who became my boyfriend of 5 years. I became closer and closer with my sister, always having her back and she, mine. During this time I met the one that got away again but realize he was and never would be the one for me. And damn I had an awesome body, but all I could think of was study! I became the best public speaker for 2 years. Only cause my English is awesome.
2005 i lived in Johor, pursuing my degree. This can also be known as the most boring time of my life. But I met my first true love who lived in the US. He taught me how great love is, making sacrifices to visit me. He was the best anyone could ever have. However, we broke up 3 years later after he found out I cheated on him with a guy from Saudi Arabia. Don't ask why my love life was so international. I was a crazy ass MMORPG player who did not settle for locals. My sister got married through drama and little Mya was born. :)
2009 I started working. I was still in a very complicated relationship, having broken up and back together for 200 times. But I was contented with it. Being an engineer was hell, and juggling careers and trying to survive a crazy relationship threw me at the verge of breaking down. I was lost not only in the city roads but also in life. I even considered suicide but i couldn't pick what method to use and realized all was too messy. What i'm not gonna eat poison i have vomit-phobia. I also didn't wanna cut my wrists or hang myself...That moment I turned to God and life took a crazy turn. He listened to me and made me a lecturer. I broke up with Saudi dude to make a change in life. He stood by me for a while until we realized we were hopeless. (And the fact that i fell for someone else, of course)
2012...
At 28 years old, I gave up on love and realized life is too short to be pathetically lost. (...and to not blame the world for everything...). I decided to be happy, be thankful for all God has to offer and be sincere in all I do. I may not be born a princess but my father made sure I lived as one. I love my cat, my family and friends and I am yet waiting for what life has to give. I am single. I am 28. I am alive :)
Where does my life go from here...?
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