Commitments zzzzzz

Is it possible for men to actually be in love? Is it true that a dude can keep his **** in his pants when a sexy half naked woman walks in front of him? Can a man really be deeply in love and faithful towards his woman? Is there such thing as “loyalty” in the dictionary of manhood? My experience reveals…

YES. I am one of the lucky women to have never had a man cheat on me. Well none that I know of, of course. All my boyfriends were either too obsessed with our relationship or too addicted to keeping me close, that it gets pretty boring and lame. But as for the question, whether a man can be loyal to a woman, my answer is a simple “yes, if he wants to”

Commitment is a fairly serious issue for both women and men. Some people think that a woman is born with natural faithfulness and the need to get married and settle down as soon as possible. It’s like a general belief that a man has more potential to be afraid of commitment and hence when a man proposes to a woman, it’s a BIG thing.

It’s nice to be loved by a man where you know you’re the first thing in his mind when he wakes up and the last thing on his mind when he goes to sleep, with some appearances in his dreams. You’re the one he’s crazy about, the one he would do anything for, the one who would listen (or pretend to) to your venting each and every day. It’s just a lovely feeling to have someone who’s always on your side even when you’re clearly in the wrong and would fight off people including their life buddies just to make sure you’re happy. When a man loves a woman, she’s been touched by an angel :)

But despite all those rainbow and butterflies emotional shower of romance, is he really as loyal as he appears to be?

“it’s just… the need for some space and sense of freedom and the good feeling of still being a market figure…” was an answer from an old friend of mine. He’s 30, married with two kids but goes out every weekend for beers and women.

“I love her but I need my own time for pleasure…” was an answer from another friend, having a beautiful girlfriend (“my soulmate” he says) but goes out with another girl just for the sex.

Put those words in a woman’s mouth and she’s a slut. But honestly, guys… we feel everything that you do. Maybe women are born with more braincells and a better sense of judging what’s wrong and right and we kinda think of the consequences before taking actions but when feelings are concerned? We feel exactly the same as men.

Women do long for that feeling of still being a market figure, walking around town turning heads around. (That’s why Mother Nature invented make up and fashion) Women do feel like they want some freedom for “pleasure” And trust me... Women need some Time OUT.

And just like men who can be loyal “If they want to”, so do we. We can dedicate and give our whole heart to ONE man. Most of us already do that well, anyway. As for me, when I love a man, he’s the only one with access to my heart and I live my days just to make him happy. I go to deep lengths (such as watching boring movies just to make him happy that I did), and I give him my heart, soul and love. When a woman loves a man, he’s the one she lives for, he’s the one she’d die for…

So Commitment, loyalty, trust and faithfulness goes both ways :)

Dear Lie, you suck...

Why do people lie? To save their asses? To get what they want? Most of the people omit truth when they are afraid of the consequences of telling fact. So they chose to hide behind lies. Then what happens when it spills by itself? The consequences will get tougher. And the hurt would be indeed, deeper.

Someone very dear once told me even the worst truth is better than a lie. Of course I have been lied to, and i have committed lies myself. But years taught me im better off without and no matter what, sooner or later the truth will come out itself and it gets tougher to fix when series of lies are chained onto one another... So might as well save the pain and face the truth before it gets nasty.

White lies are those who are concerned with the protection of someone’s feelings. These are the lies for noble causes and it doesn’t hurt anybody. Well I supposed some situations do apply... Like when you see your friend looking at her worst, a huge zit on her forehead or hair resembling medusa, a little white lie would actually build up her confidence and strengthen your friendship. Telling people they look nice when they actually dont, is just human courtesy.

But what is NOT forgiven is when you know the truth and yet that one person lives in denial, doing everything he could to let that one issue be clouded with all the lies. Betrayed... Deceived... feelings of hurt overwhelm you and makin your heart just burns with anger and hatred. The truth is right in front of your eyes and yet he's lying to you.

"you will regret this when you know the truth!" He told me, as if all the things he said was true.

Well, I do know the truth, it's laying there in front of my eyes. I will never forget the day, the time where everything turned out to be just lies... As for me. I cant forgive. I wont ...

The Suckiness of PDRM knows as Dumb Malaysian Policemen

I was driving to site yesterday and stopped by a restroom right after the highway exit at Bukit Jelutong not knowing how ridiculously stupid and rude Malaysian policemen are. Not to be Racist or Occupationist but a group of Indian dumbasses were conducting a roadblock where they pulled me over. i am not the careless type drivers who never wear seatbelts. In fact I'm one of the VERY few people who ALWAYS wear setbelts even to a short distance location. But yesterday, by the fact that I was near to my destination, I chose to NOT wear it.

And just my luck I got pulled over by the police.

Okay honestly i dont mind if they issued me a summon. It was a mistake i did and i absolutely deserve it. But what I know I dont deserve is being yelled at like I was an illegal immigrant or a retarded 10 year old kid who just conducted a mishap.

"Kenapa tak pakai talipinggang?" Said the Indian Policeman, meaning "Why arent u wearing seatbelt"

"Saya terlupa, baru saja jalan dari r n r tadi" (I forgot, i just started drving from the RnR) I answered in the most polite way when he cut me off.

"kenapa bodoh sangat tak reti pakai setbelt? Masa ambil lesen tahu pulak pakai. Tak sekolah ke?" (Why are u so stupid not to wear ur belt? You sure know how to when u were takin driving license. What? u didnt go to school?)

I was like "WTF?!" Didnt he go to school and learn manners? Or were these kind of people trained to be rude to publics.

After leaving me shocked and speechless, he kept yelling at me (was in a blur and too pissed of to remember what he was saying) so i just buckled up and drove away.

Okay i know it was my fault i had forgotten to wear the dumb seatbelt. But what ever gave him the right to yell and be rude about it. it's not like i just murdered someone and had blood on my hands. Arent Policemen supposed to be respectful and attentive to the public? or just coz they were handed guns they think they have the right to rudeness.

I think PDRM should include Manners lessons to the Police Training. it's bad enough they are as corrupted as hell but being rude to the people for no reason is a little bit too much.

GPS....Google Map... Bite me!

Bad sense of direction... is it a disease? Or just an indication of plain stupidity?!



Finding my way through crazy ass roads has been a major problem in my life. And it's just weird since driving has been my passion. From work to site, site to work i never really took the same route xD i always end up getting an "Alternative Routing" from my GPS meaning i ALWAYS take the wrong turns. How freakin dumb is that? And Sad enough, I had gone off to site for more than 10 times (i think) and i still can't find the right way x.x

Googling this problem, i noticed I am definitely not the only one. And unfortunately there are no solutions to this when i found out what the reasons were. Non-observant. yes. In the car, i find a place to think about so many stuff and problems and it's a place where i can just cry or laugh or sing my lungs out. It's my solitude where i can act like anything and not be judged. So do I have time or interest to observe the surroundings? NO. That is when I start to lose my direction.

How do I plan to solve this problem? By TRYING. I learnt that I will NEVER learn the route until i go through it at least 20 times. And any new roads will be strange to me and i will have to learn them all over again. It's just a problem that will probably last forever. cant help it. All my life i have been depending on people to take me to places. Maybe it's just one of the NEW things i have to miserably learn in this journey of adulthood.

Isn't it Ironic that I am as lost in life, as i am in directions?

5 REASONS WHY I'M SINGLE (haha!)

As i was surfing through Yahoo Blogs today I found an article on 5 things NOT to do in a relationship which I also realized were the 5 things that are commonly commited in my past 100 relationships and causing them to... Well you know, i'm a single 26 year old so you get the point. So I decided to elaborate a bit on these 5 Don'ts according to my personal experience.

1. You’re frequently disappointed by your partner’s gifts or gestures.

TRUE. I'm always expecting more. I expect him to pay attention to me when I want something through my hints and interest. Whenever the gift isn't up to my expectations, i became really disappointed and show it, makin him feel hurt and upset. Maybe it's time to expect less and appreciate every little thought that counts.

2. You focus on his faults.

Yes, even Mr Right cannot be perfect. During the relationship era, I tend to find reasons on why it won't work out instead of reasons on why it would. And being the EGO headed person I am, every fault is his coz I tend to see myself as the perfect GF even if i do know I'm way beyond that. I guess to fix this matter I should take some blame and make some cute apologies to salvage what's left.

3. You’re too available or have drastically changed your routine for him.

Ok. BULLSEYE. I dont know but it's kinda hard not to feel like you want to impress other guys except your own bf. Maybe it's coz i'm so proud to be his lover that I want him to feel proud to be mine so i try too hard. But some of these gestures usually turn out to be backfiring and I end up looking cheap and easy and of course, leading to mistrusts and fights. Guess I should keep reminding myself that he loves me and that love is really all I need.

4. You’ve stopped getting glam for your dates…ever.

Hmm... This only happens when I'm at the verge of losing interest towards my bf . Not something I worry about but when i stopped trying to look nice, means I couldnt be bothered to and the relationship is ending. Chances of salvaging? ZERO.

5. You discuss your relationship too much.

OMG where is this heading? OMG we're drifting apart!!! OMG you dont love me as much as I love you! OMG you're doing NOTHING for me anymore! OMG this is going nowhere!!!

Yeah I do freak out a lot. Maybe too much. Relationships are meant to be some good experience that makes you happy. The only phase in your life that requires the least amount of thoughts. Not filled with stressful talks which usually end up in disagreements. I need to start thinking less about my relationship and try to enjoy it. ;)

THE ROAD NOT TAKEN... Robert Frost

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood, And sorry I could not travel both And be one traveler, long I stood And looked down one as far as I could To where it bent in the undergrowth; Then took the other, as just as fair And having perhaps the better claim, Because it was grassy and wanted wear; Though as for that, the passing there Had worn them really about the same, And both that morning equally lay In leaves no step had trodden black Oh, I kept the first for another day! Yet knowing how way leads on to way, I doubted if I should ever come back. I shall be telling this with a sigh Somewhere ages and ages hence: two roads diverged in a wood, and I -- I took the one less traveled by, And that has made all the difference. There's always moments in our lives when we would keep asking ourselves... "what if?"

GOLD DIGGER~!

They're everywhere... breeding like rabbits... In your office, among your friends... They're sickeningly sporing like fungus... Aiming for the dudes with $$... And even as i have nothing against them.. These species of people (both women AND men) are freakingly annoying and bothers the mind of how people can get stuff the easy way...


Gold diggers
- Doesnt it just grosses you out when u think that sweet pretty girls are sugarbabies then suddenly poof! your ugly friend whose hobby is nose scratching is established as one?

- The Gold Diggers are one thing, but the man being digged... Isnt he a dumbass or something?

- They say that Gold diggers are smarter version of hookers... is this a good or a bad thing? The dude buys ur pride and body (with the risk of STDs and shyt) and u get some materials stuff... how is that smart?!

- Well im not one to judge. Anyone can bitch about how they hate gold diggers but when they are offered $$$, they go weak in the knees and become one... lol! Just here to vent :)