WELCOME 2011, SAYONARA 2010!~

Remember the old school days when your teachers assigned you to write a complete essay about "New Year Resolutions" almost every year? Well those were the times we dreadfully forced ourselves to squeeze our brains in hopes for ideas. 15 years later, here we are, volunteering to write this essay. Now it's my turn...

2011 New Year Resolutions

27 Years breathing on Planet Earth. Almost 3 decades. Body of a women, Mind of a girl... Let's see how I intend to grow up this year. Welcome 2011 :)

1. Focus On My Career

Woot! I have a career believe it or not! Something I'm dedicated to. I love this life as a lecturer and I'm gonna do my best to rock it. I intend to be an educator with patience and understandings and maintain my beliefs and principles.

2. Drop the Emoness

Drama is fun. But too much fun is unhealthy. This new year I will try to evolve into a mature 27 year old, with less drama and emo acts. Everything happens for a reason. Time to learn to handle it well :p

3. Be Faithful to the boyfriend

Stop flirting around and playing the field. i'm NOT 16 anymore. Stay faithful. Just remember the times when "harmless flirt" got me in trouble. MASSIVE trouble.

4. Learn to cook

Well... Been my resolution year after year. Time to actually spend some time in the kitchen and dunk in those ingredients.

5. LOSE WEIGHT and live it healthy

Actually this should be number 1. I got Jeans i need to fit in so yeah. LOSE THAT ARSE! Should start worrying bout weight since I moved from size S to M.... Time to lose the carb and eat more fruits and vege. Or continue an old resolution (to become a vegetarian!)

6. Be nice to parents

About time to be nice now, since I'm living under the same roof :p Help doing chores... Cooking... and dont lose temper too easy! and oh yes no more sulking. You only get ONE pair of parents in a lifetime.

7. Be a WWF Volunteer.

I wanna go in forests and play with em tigers! Rawr!

8. QUIT online Games :- TOP!~

I really, really should... TOP has been the source of all my drama and emoness. There should be the time where I am supposed to roll up the curtains and give this up. For good.

9. Pay Debts.

10. Write in Journal/blog

Need to keep note of the going ons in life :P Will try hard to blog more about life and will start making a Diary called "Dear Lyra" and given to my future baby girl so she can know how her mama lived at 27 years old :P

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

What a Diploma Means...

3 weeks into a lecturer's life I found out about the corruption that's happening in the Education system. No, not by money... But by Compassion. While other students are struggling to get a diploma or degree in their universities, here it comes easy. I'm not criticizing the humanity and kind-hearts of the lecturers here but this condition just made me stare at my diploma i had earned in a similar institution, and how this devalues it.

All my 6 years of higher education I had worked my ass of to get to where I am. During my diploma, it took me a lot of sucking up to lecturer's and losing friends just to maintain my 3.9 cpa. Nothing came easy. I did everything i had to do, from completing all given assignments to studying hard for exams and focusing in each and every class. I did it the right way. No copying, no hitch-hiking. And i got what i wished for... A scholarship to continue my studies to a B.eng level.

And my hardwork didn't stop there. While most of my friends took the easy way to pass their courses (i.e cheating, copying assignments, sleeping with people to get it done etc) i took the federal road. Meeting my lecturers every 5 minutes and making sure ALL my assignments fulfil the requirements and studied HARD for exams. All hardwork and backstabs later, i managed to get myself an upper second-class degree, and a Vice Chancellor award though I did aim for First Class. But I was satisfied that I did my best.

But today I see life from a lecturer's point of view. Students take advantage of lecturers. They don't take education too seriously. And my colleagues are too kind to fail them, doing their best to make sure the students pass all papers. Diploma comes easy for them, they don't have to earn it. All they had to do was pay the RM200 semester fees and a diploma is practically handed to them. No need for hardwork, no need to pay attention in class and Final Exams are like theme park rides for them.

Of course I'm not saying that all educators are givers. Some are highly strict and don't seem to bow to students' pleas. But the education level in where I'm working is too low. I admit High School Education was more difficult. It makes me think, is my diploma even worth anything? If everyone is getting it easy, what would my hardly-earned diploma mean?

Students get loans, buy super-expensive cellphones and hardly buys themselves any stationaries or books. Or they spent renting hotels and humping around... Some even use the loans for drinks and cigarettes and drugs... They hand in assignments using DRAFT papers and lecturers feel sorry for them for coming from a poor or problematic family. In classes they fall asleep, in exams they copy each other... And at the end of 3 years, a diploma is handed for all these "efforts"

I stick to my principle! A DIPLOMA SHOULD BE EARNED NOT DONATED!!! So Dear students of mine, hand in my assignments quizzes in a PROFESSIONAL condition. Clean, completed and organized. Answer my quizzes and tests truthfully and don't even TRY to copy in exams. I didn't sleep through my education, so why should I let you :)

What a diploma means?

Hard work!

What a degree means?

Determination!

Most Embarassing Moments xD

What an awful day today is! Only 3pm and approximately 2 hours till home time where i can finally take this piece of rag of my legs! New dress, looks all vogue and classy... turning heads around but as i sat down... krrrrrr.... It ripped where it shouldnt the most, revealing half my thighs! Oh My God!

It's a warning of how fat I am, i guess. Time for a super diet routine. Lose the fatass that's causing all my dresses to surrender but in this 2 hours of worktime left, i need a plan.. one that can save some humiliation. i need some instant remedy that can camouflage the rip. I need to save some dignity!

Feeling all paranoid and awkward just reminds me about all the humiliating moments of my life. And I'm pretty sure everyone had at least been through ONE certain humiliation. An experience they wish they never had. That moment in life where you just want to dig up a 6 feet hole, dive in and never resurface. But life goes on. We just have to learn how to live through it.

It's all about how you deal with it xD

How the common "flirt" is misunderstood

As a sequel to my "Jealousy" blog, today I would like to share some thoughts on the common "flirt" that are kinda famous among people whether they are single or married. Anne speaks :

Everyday in our life ever since we hit puberty, flirting has become a hobby in our daily events. We flicker our eyes, smile shyly, and sometimes uses pick-up lines we googled in the internet just for the fun of it. Sometimes these harmless acts lead to something serious and people hooked up. Sometimes people took it too seriously and broke their own heart when they found out it meant nothing. So how do we tell if the flirt is harmless, or if it really means something?

I was seated next to a cool guy, kinda good looking on the plane to Sabah. At first he was kinda stuck-up-ish and i didn't want further awkwardness by starting a weird conversation. But after an hour of being cramped in a seat he started talking to me and asking questions about my life. One topic led to another and suddenly he was asking me out for a drink. Then he started saying i reminded him of a hot actress on TV. And this was AFTER he told me he was married with 3 children. And that's where my friendliness hit the brakes. Whoa... mister...! do i look like a home-breaker?~

But then I sat down thinking, it must have been some meaningless flirt to see if he still has it. He probably didn't really asked me out but trying to see if i would say yes. People do it all the time. Even i do it. I don't mean anything, since I am in a relationship already (it's complicated, open but still a relationship) but it's fun to see people's reactions when you flirt. Some make jokes about it and we just end up laughing and having a good time. But some took it too far and went to the next level (meaning sex invitations).

If I was to stop all the flirting, life would be so boring. Yeah it would make my boyfriend less jealous and happy to have ALL my attention finally. It would stop people from labeling me. And it would make me a stuck up biyach. I had gone through a 5 year stagnant relationship and the boringness made me wanna scream so bad i almost went nuts. This is the person I am. And as long as I don't go naked for you or tell you i love you with glimmering eyes and promising future, all my flirts are HARMLESS and means nothing. *Online wise, as long as it's in a general conversation area where many people can read it's NOT serious as i do not take local chats seriously* And as long as i don't have a ring around my finger I think i would like to have some freedom to have a little fun.

As long as you stay away from getting too deep, i think a little flirt is ok. Once you see things are getting a weee bit too far it's time to hit the brakes and change to reverse gear. Unless you really want something to happen between you and him/her it's best to keep your flirts clean and PG13. And geez if you're married, try NOT flirting, seriously. I just hate it when married people even think they can woo me. It's immoral, stupid and ridiculous. i do not flirt with married dudes. -be told-

Malaysia Oh Malaysia! (Part 4 - Warisan Merdeka)

So the PM decided to build the tallest tower in the world (again), naming it Warisan Merdeka, 100 storey and costing RM5 billion (USD1,56 billion)... Anne speaks :-

I was browsing through the news again (something i dont usually do, but i was bored as hell at work) and found out about this megatower the government had decided to build. Being a true supporter of the Malaysian government, i somehow find this idea irrelevant to what the country needs and sort of in bad-timing.

Taken from mmail.com.my,

BERNAMA

Tuesday, October 19th, 2010 20:39:00

KUALA LUMPUR: Datuk Seri Najib Tun Razak today defended the proposal to build a 100-storey tower, costing RM5 billion, saying it was not a waste but an opportunity to generate the economy and create an icon for a developed and modern Malaysia.

The prime minister said the construction of the tower would benefit many sectors. "There are many contract works which we can give out to spur economic activities. The area can also become a centre of attraction and a business centre.

"This is not a waste but something that will bring benefit," he said, adding that the project was proposed by Permodalan Nasional Bhd.

I had replied to this news :-

I'm usually a FULL supporter for the past BN mega projects namely KLCC, KLIA, Sepang Circuit etc... These are the elements of Malaysia that puts us among big Countries in the world. However, I think this country is NOT YET READY for Warisan Merdeka project as there are still many citizens who are homeless and jobless and not forgetting the environmental condition in Malaysia which is not in excellent condition (ie forest and wildlife preservation). I say the RM5b should be used to solve the existing problems, fix the structures we have, and developing environmental organisations rather than risking it on a project that has no guarantee will be successful. Im not saying don't do it at all, I'm just saying DON'T DO IT YET. Not until we are stable economically and environmentally at least. (sorry for imperfect english)

Submitted by Anne on Thursday, October 28th, 2010

Malaysia Oh Malaysia! (Part 3 - Entertainment hub)

First of all I dont get it. Most of the people who are bravely speaking out in blogs condemning each and every government decisions are government employees. If you don't like what the government is doing, quit and give the position to people who actually knows how to appreciate the hand that feeds them. Or option #2, move to Saudi Arabia, see how you like it there. Im sure the government is 100% islamic based and everything is "Haram" just how you like it.

Reading an article from Malaysiakini.com, i found out that the PM is creating an area for locating Nightclubs in Malaysia. What remains blurry is if this means moving all the existing nightclubs or entertainment centres there or adding more nightclubs in the country, just contained in a specific area without moving the existing ones. The latter would definitely raise anger and rage among Islamic leaders.

Whatever the reason is, I just strongly believe that the government has it's own reasons and excuse to conduct such movement. The positive effect is people will be able to control visitors of the clubs, thus making it easier to spot an under aged citizen or a Muslim strolling around in the inappropriate radius. And it will also make a good chill-out place for tourists, hence contributing to economical growth in Malaysia, in which we desperately need. Whether or not it downgrades the mental and social behaviour of our people is strictly an individual inner-conflict. It is up to parents, teachers and educators and not forgetting their individual selves to differenciate what's wrong and what's right. And people should know that no matter what, the clubs already exist anyway. What the government is trying to do is keep it contained and controlled. So just stop being so negative all the time.

Reading all the comments mocking the PM and condemning the government, i realized how SHALLOW the minds of the people are. Why not give it a chance? This is a country with THREE (3) MAJOR races and about a hundred minors including tourists and migrants. Why not be Global and positive and just support what the government is trying to do?

-anne-

Haloween Special : My Ghost Encounter

This is a true story that happened about 6 years ago. I was in a dorm with my sister watching The Ring on dad's laptop. (ye back then laptops were cool and only rich people have em). Anyways it was about 12 am midnight and most of the dorm residents had gone to bed, or studying in their rooms and it was soooo quiet. Well, except for the movie we were watching.

Suddenly there was a black out. And ironically, it was during the scene when Samara (the name of the girl ghost) was climbing out of the well... And when the black out happened, all the lights went of. Street lights, corridor lights, room lights. EXCEPT FOR THE LAPTOP. In that total darkness all me and my sister saw was Samara crawling out of the well, out of the TV (in the movie) and in my imagination, OUT OF THE LAPTOP SCREEN. That was when both me and my sister screamed our lungs out and the whole floor came ambushing our door to see wth was going on. Just 2 secs after the screaming event, we both bursted out laughing knowing we got punked by a stupid movie.

Yes, that was the scariest moment in my life involving ghosts. (fake ghost yea, but still). It triggered some post events that had made me who I am now. A true Scaredy cat. One night, a few days after my beloved cat Putam died, I had a dream about it crawling onto my bed and sleeping on my belly. (It used to do that a lot) Suddenly, I felt heavy. I felt something pressed against my body really hard till i couldnt breathe. I opened my eyes to see a black figure with no face, just shadows right above me sitting and making me breathless... I couldnt scream i just felt numb and paralyzed. But I still managed to gather some strength and wrestled with it. I think I woke up and realized it was a dream but it was confusing as i had dreamed my room condition exactly the way it was when i woke up... spookey indead... I did some research online and talked to my friends and found out many people had gone through this, and remained unexplained.

Only after that i had become really afraid of the dark but occasionally treat myself to some horror movies. But to be alone in darkness with some eerie sounds every now and then? a big NO THANK YOU. I am scared of ghosts. Period.

Anne's Top 10 Scariest Movie of all time ^^

1. Coming Soon (Thai)

2. The Grudge (US Version)

3. Shutter (Thai)

4. Wishing Stairs (Korea)

5. Jangan Pandang Belakang (Don't look Back, Malaysia)

6. The Ring (US Version)

7. One Missed Call (Japanese Version)

8. 1408 (US)

9. Poltergeist III

10. Exorcist series

Can't remember but i'm sure there's more :p