Most Embarassing Moments xD

What an awful day today is! Only 3pm and approximately 2 hours till home time where i can finally take this piece of rag of my legs! New dress, looks all vogue and classy... turning heads around but as i sat down... krrrrrr.... It ripped where it shouldnt the most, revealing half my thighs! Oh My God!

It's a warning of how fat I am, i guess. Time for a super diet routine. Lose the fatass that's causing all my dresses to surrender but in this 2 hours of worktime left, i need a plan.. one that can save some humiliation. i need some instant remedy that can camouflage the rip. I need to save some dignity!

Feeling all paranoid and awkward just reminds me about all the humiliating moments of my life. And I'm pretty sure everyone had at least been through ONE certain humiliation. An experience they wish they never had. That moment in life where you just want to dig up a 6 feet hole, dive in and never resurface. But life goes on. We just have to learn how to live through it.

It's all about how you deal with it xD

How the common "flirt" is misunderstood

As a sequel to my "Jealousy" blog, today I would like to share some thoughts on the common "flirt" that are kinda famous among people whether they are single or married. Anne speaks :

Everyday in our life ever since we hit puberty, flirting has become a hobby in our daily events. We flicker our eyes, smile shyly, and sometimes uses pick-up lines we googled in the internet just for the fun of it. Sometimes these harmless acts lead to something serious and people hooked up. Sometimes people took it too seriously and broke their own heart when they found out it meant nothing. So how do we tell if the flirt is harmless, or if it really means something?

I was seated next to a cool guy, kinda good looking on the plane to Sabah. At first he was kinda stuck-up-ish and i didn't want further awkwardness by starting a weird conversation. But after an hour of being cramped in a seat he started talking to me and asking questions about my life. One topic led to another and suddenly he was asking me out for a drink. Then he started saying i reminded him of a hot actress on TV. And this was AFTER he told me he was married with 3 children. And that's where my friendliness hit the brakes. Whoa... mister...! do i look like a home-breaker?~

But then I sat down thinking, it must have been some meaningless flirt to see if he still has it. He probably didn't really asked me out but trying to see if i would say yes. People do it all the time. Even i do it. I don't mean anything, since I am in a relationship already (it's complicated, open but still a relationship) but it's fun to see people's reactions when you flirt. Some make jokes about it and we just end up laughing and having a good time. But some took it too far and went to the next level (meaning sex invitations).

If I was to stop all the flirting, life would be so boring. Yeah it would make my boyfriend less jealous and happy to have ALL my attention finally. It would stop people from labeling me. And it would make me a stuck up biyach. I had gone through a 5 year stagnant relationship and the boringness made me wanna scream so bad i almost went nuts. This is the person I am. And as long as I don't go naked for you or tell you i love you with glimmering eyes and promising future, all my flirts are HARMLESS and means nothing. *Online wise, as long as it's in a general conversation area where many people can read it's NOT serious as i do not take local chats seriously* And as long as i don't have a ring around my finger I think i would like to have some freedom to have a little fun.

As long as you stay away from getting too deep, i think a little flirt is ok. Once you see things are getting a weee bit too far it's time to hit the brakes and change to reverse gear. Unless you really want something to happen between you and him/her it's best to keep your flirts clean and PG13. And geez if you're married, try NOT flirting, seriously. I just hate it when married people even think they can woo me. It's immoral, stupid and ridiculous. i do not flirt with married dudes. -be told-

Malaysia Oh Malaysia! (Part 4 - Warisan Merdeka)

So the PM decided to build the tallest tower in the world (again), naming it Warisan Merdeka, 100 storey and costing RM5 billion (USD1,56 billion)... Anne speaks :-

I was browsing through the news again (something i dont usually do, but i was bored as hell at work) and found out about this megatower the government had decided to build. Being a true supporter of the Malaysian government, i somehow find this idea irrelevant to what the country needs and sort of in bad-timing.

Taken from mmail.com.my,

BERNAMA

Tuesday, October 19th, 2010 20:39:00

KUALA LUMPUR: Datuk Seri Najib Tun Razak today defended the proposal to build a 100-storey tower, costing RM5 billion, saying it was not a waste but an opportunity to generate the economy and create an icon for a developed and modern Malaysia.

The prime minister said the construction of the tower would benefit many sectors. "There are many contract works which we can give out to spur economic activities. The area can also become a centre of attraction and a business centre.

"This is not a waste but something that will bring benefit," he said, adding that the project was proposed by Permodalan Nasional Bhd.

I had replied to this news :-

I'm usually a FULL supporter for the past BN mega projects namely KLCC, KLIA, Sepang Circuit etc... These are the elements of Malaysia that puts us among big Countries in the world. However, I think this country is NOT YET READY for Warisan Merdeka project as there are still many citizens who are homeless and jobless and not forgetting the environmental condition in Malaysia which is not in excellent condition (ie forest and wildlife preservation). I say the RM5b should be used to solve the existing problems, fix the structures we have, and developing environmental organisations rather than risking it on a project that has no guarantee will be successful. Im not saying don't do it at all, I'm just saying DON'T DO IT YET. Not until we are stable economically and environmentally at least. (sorry for imperfect english)

Submitted by Anne on Thursday, October 28th, 2010

Malaysia Oh Malaysia! (Part 3 - Entertainment hub)

First of all I dont get it. Most of the people who are bravely speaking out in blogs condemning each and every government decisions are government employees. If you don't like what the government is doing, quit and give the position to people who actually knows how to appreciate the hand that feeds them. Or option #2, move to Saudi Arabia, see how you like it there. Im sure the government is 100% islamic based and everything is "Haram" just how you like it.

Reading an article from Malaysiakini.com, i found out that the PM is creating an area for locating Nightclubs in Malaysia. What remains blurry is if this means moving all the existing nightclubs or entertainment centres there or adding more nightclubs in the country, just contained in a specific area without moving the existing ones. The latter would definitely raise anger and rage among Islamic leaders.

Whatever the reason is, I just strongly believe that the government has it's own reasons and excuse to conduct such movement. The positive effect is people will be able to control visitors of the clubs, thus making it easier to spot an under aged citizen or a Muslim strolling around in the inappropriate radius. And it will also make a good chill-out place for tourists, hence contributing to economical growth in Malaysia, in which we desperately need. Whether or not it downgrades the mental and social behaviour of our people is strictly an individual inner-conflict. It is up to parents, teachers and educators and not forgetting their individual selves to differenciate what's wrong and what's right. And people should know that no matter what, the clubs already exist anyway. What the government is trying to do is keep it contained and controlled. So just stop being so negative all the time.

Reading all the comments mocking the PM and condemning the government, i realized how SHALLOW the minds of the people are. Why not give it a chance? This is a country with THREE (3) MAJOR races and about a hundred minors including tourists and migrants. Why not be Global and positive and just support what the government is trying to do?

-anne-

Haloween Special : My Ghost Encounter

This is a true story that happened about 6 years ago. I was in a dorm with my sister watching The Ring on dad's laptop. (ye back then laptops were cool and only rich people have em). Anyways it was about 12 am midnight and most of the dorm residents had gone to bed, or studying in their rooms and it was soooo quiet. Well, except for the movie we were watching.

Suddenly there was a black out. And ironically, it was during the scene when Samara (the name of the girl ghost) was climbing out of the well... And when the black out happened, all the lights went of. Street lights, corridor lights, room lights. EXCEPT FOR THE LAPTOP. In that total darkness all me and my sister saw was Samara crawling out of the well, out of the TV (in the movie) and in my imagination, OUT OF THE LAPTOP SCREEN. That was when both me and my sister screamed our lungs out and the whole floor came ambushing our door to see wth was going on. Just 2 secs after the screaming event, we both bursted out laughing knowing we got punked by a stupid movie.

Yes, that was the scariest moment in my life involving ghosts. (fake ghost yea, but still). It triggered some post events that had made me who I am now. A true Scaredy cat. One night, a few days after my beloved cat Putam died, I had a dream about it crawling onto my bed and sleeping on my belly. (It used to do that a lot) Suddenly, I felt heavy. I felt something pressed against my body really hard till i couldnt breathe. I opened my eyes to see a black figure with no face, just shadows right above me sitting and making me breathless... I couldnt scream i just felt numb and paralyzed. But I still managed to gather some strength and wrestled with it. I think I woke up and realized it was a dream but it was confusing as i had dreamed my room condition exactly the way it was when i woke up... spookey indead... I did some research online and talked to my friends and found out many people had gone through this, and remained unexplained.

Only after that i had become really afraid of the dark but occasionally treat myself to some horror movies. But to be alone in darkness with some eerie sounds every now and then? a big NO THANK YOU. I am scared of ghosts. Period.

Anne's Top 10 Scariest Movie of all time ^^

1. Coming Soon (Thai)

2. The Grudge (US Version)

3. Shutter (Thai)

4. Wishing Stairs (Korea)

5. Jangan Pandang Belakang (Don't look Back, Malaysia)

6. The Ring (US Version)

7. One Missed Call (Japanese Version)

8. 1408 (US)

9. Poltergeist III

10. Exorcist series

Can't remember but i'm sure there's more :p

Jealousy... requirement? or trash?

Is jealousy necessary in a relationship? Or is it just a spreading virus that only causes the love and trust to disappear and flushed down the toilet. Anne speaks, :-

Jealousy is a feeling of discomfort in the heart when you see something that u want or desire lingers around something that is not you. It's a need unfulfilled. It's a disease if not controlled can ruin your life and everything that you cherish.

In a relationship, what if there's no jealousy at all? What if there's too much space and freedom for both parties to stray without either one having any feeling of frustration or disappointment?Doesn't this mean that the relationship is unhealthy and practically worthless as both of you don't care if there's a possibility one of you can find another?

Personally I think it's necessary to have some slight jealousy to make a relationship work. It's a nice rush when your partner worries about you being stolen by someone else. Makes you feel appreciated and wanted and loved. And shows how much he/she doesn't like sharing you with another thus trying harder to make sure your attention belongs to only him/her. If they always use the phrase "I trust you" even when you do your best to make em jealous usually it means "I don't care you can be with whoever you want. I dont love you that much anyway..." Then it's time to move on and be with someone who does care and wants you to be just theirs.

*NOTE FOR GIRLS*

It starts to really suck when in a relationship only one person feels the pain of jealousy while the other couldn't care any less. My opinion, if he is not scared of the possibility of losing you to another it either means :-

1. He doesn't love you that much and doesn't care about losing you

2. He has a plan B. (Meaning he has another girl on the side, you moron!)

3. You're ugly

4. He's hot (or he thinks he is) that he knows you'll be crawling back to him soon anyway.

The trick is to treat him EXACTLY how he treats you. If he's not jealous why do you even bother? Move on! Start to NOT care! (and if he is the superjealous kind, be that way too. Let him know how being tied up feels like!)

Back to jealousy...

However, it's the kind of thing that can kill when it's too much. Obsession is never a healthy thing for anyone. Too much jealousy is like putting chains around your feet. When jealousy becomes thicker, trust becomes thinner, to the point where it messes up your emotions and leads to constant fights and destroys the whole relationship. Sooner or later the chains becomes barb wires that causes more pain while still imprisoning you.

Love with no trust is no love in the first place. But Love with too much trust is just careless.

Time For A Change...

You know God is on your side when you start feeling sorry for your enemy for all the good things you're getting and the nothingness she has. You finally stop hating her and ready to move on with your life. With one last sarcasm "goodbye dear ex best friend, i am finally getting somewhere in life and you'll be here, rotting in this hell hole you call a workplace...", I held my head high, turned around, smiled, satisfied and walked away. It was that very moment i realized how sorry I felt for her and how i never want to be in her position.

Years after years I havent been an angel to deserve all the good things in life. I have sinned, i have had bad intentions. Lust for guys' attention. Envy for the people more successful than me. Greed for money and expensive gifts. Gluttony for classy cuisines and beverages. Pride big enough to sink in Mount everest and hurting people i love with it. Sloth for housework and helping people. Wrath in almost every little thing that happened. And yet, here I am, my wishes coming true even though i know I'm too far away from deserving it.

So I guess He listens. No matter what type of person you are, there's always a chance in you getting your wishes come true if it comes with good intentions. It's an ease of the soul when you let go of that hatred you feel for someone and start to feel sympathy for her luck. It's a piece of mind when you forgive her for backstabbing you. It's time for a change when you can finally breathe in clean air and move on with your life towards a better future :)

Credits to an ex best friend who decided to be an enemy