Beauty of death...

"Here, weary traveller rest your wand...Sleep the journey from your eyes..."

Tuesday, October 6, 2009

No Chains Around me...

"Be Religious!"
"Your dress is too tight!"
"Dont go out later than 7pm"
"Don't go out at all!"
"You're wearing too much make up and you look like a whore!"
"Don't let men even glimpse at you"
"Get a Freaking job!"
"Serve only us!"
"RESPECT ME!"
"Cover your hair up!"
Don't talk to random people!"
"I OWN YOU"
"Do this!"
"Do that!"
"Don't talk to men coz if u do means you're sleeping with them!"
"Be PERFECT!"
"DO NOT MAKE MISTAKES.... EVER!"

At one time, it has to stop...

Monday, October 5, 2009

Who's Fault?

I dont usually take my sweet time reading newspaper everyday, unless there's something really juicy or important like war or paris hilton died... or something... But today, among the tragic stories of flood in Manila and earthquake in Indonesia, there was an article about a new-born baby found near the docks at west beach of Malaysia, probably washed to shore...

My heart felt saddened for the baby, and angry at the mother, for having the heart to actually commit something that cruel... But who is to blame here? I highly agree that there's no excuse for what the bitch did, but let's put ourselves in her shoes. And dont bulls with me about you "wouldnt ever be in that position!" crap. Because i know at one point, we've all been bad, just some people got unlucky and had to pay the price. And this dumb fellow, chose to throw her baby away, killing it, as in thinking that she's deleting her mistakes and problems, with hope it won't haunt her.

In US or UK, illegimate babies are born practically every 2 seconds or less. But with the society people live in, and way of thinking, they accepted these babies with open arms, treating them no less like normal babies and respecting the mother for being a strong single mother. But this could never happened here, because our mind are set to thinking that illegimate (mind the spelling) babies are "bastards" that don't deserve to live the day, and the mothers are whores who have sinned and must be shunt from the society.

I wonder if someday, we would be positive about this issue, and learn to accept that people make mistakes and to actually take the responsibilty to help them and guide them.. Or maybe i just live in dreamworld where nothing is too much to ask for. But think about it, if we're willing to think out if the box and learn to forgive, help and guide, how many babies in this country we can save?

Saturday, September 26, 2009

The Joke's on YOU!!!!

2 days ago ALL malaysian newspapers were spammed by a story about how a man was humilated by his cheating wife on her birthday. He supposedly was planning to surprise her with flowers and a fruitcake (priced at RM35 or so the papers said) when he caught her already spending her birthday in a hotel room with another man. On the same night she was caught by JAIS, a religious department in Malaysian government and was fined some amount of money while her husband posed with the cake in his hand and a pathetic sad expression on his face and he was news headline beating the 99999 road accidents cases in this country.

SAD? NOT! PATHETIC? VERY.


WHAT A LOSER! How stupid can a person be? Well actually, how low can someone stoop asking for people's sympathy while at the same time, humiliating the wife in a payback attempt. I'm not taking the wife's side of this story, she did committed adultery which is surely unforgiven. But the dude knew that she was sleeping with this man for like a looong ass time (ye, in the paper he mentioned he knew about this from his wife's text messages) and decided to react on her birthday, where he can play the victim act (bought a cake and some flowers) and look so pathetic so people can be all "owwwww poor dude, you dont deserve this.." The issue is, for me... Are Malaysians too narrow-minded to be fooled by this idiot of a man. Seriously, did u ever think of the posibility that he never even celebrated his wife's previous birthdays (or else she wouldnt be making plans with some other dude on her bday night) and suddenly wanted to "celebrate" her birthday while all along he was planning to attack her and humilate her like she did him.


Again, WHAT A LOSER. Okay so your wife cheated on you. Be a man! Have some pride! It's bad enough that she humiliated you, why would you add to the humiliation by doing something that pathetic and dumb? Why call ALL the newspapers so they can put you at the frontpage telling the whole nation what a sad, loser you are? If you wanted to avenge your wife's acts, do it with pride. Divorce her. Lawyers. Courts. If she was cheating on you than you have nothing to lose. But for this dumb act that you committed. You just put yourself lower than scum. I cant help but to mock at the supposedly sad picture of him holding the cake "trying" to be the victim in this self-created tragedy and call him a pathetic, sad loser.

But he's not the first and only guy who does these things. I know some of my exes behaving like this when i cut off the string. Using what i did as a sad story they tell the new girls they wanted to woo so they can be all "owwwww you dont deserve that.. you deserve better... i wont do that to you..." (barf!) At one point i wonder, is it worth stooping that low just to get people's sympathy? You're dumped. Save your pride. Move on.

And think about it. If a guy cheats on a girl or dump her on her wedding day it's almost considered as an everyday issue and people would just snort and say "oh well..." and turn their heads away and move on to the next news. But i am 99% sure that she would NOT buy a birthday cake and stalk him at his house looking sad and heartbroken calling ALL the newspapers telling the world that she was dumped on this day and hoping for people's sympathy.

No. It's coz girls are smarter and have more pride! Mhahahhahaha!!!

Friday, July 10, 2009

5 MANLY HABITS WE WOMEN REALLY HATE




Wow... Seems like i havent posted anything for almost a month..! I miss this haha! Well... Obviously nothing much has been going on that can be blogged about... well except for MJ's death... Earth Day... Swine Flu... Oh who am I kidding... so much to write about i've just been lazy...

Well I walked into town today and realized that men can be reeeeeeally disgusting. I mean, we try to make the country (Malaysian men, specifically) clean but oh my god... It's kinda impossible when they do their best to be lazy and gross and make the world a filthy place we live in. Here I present the 10 disgusting men habits that i think should be illegal. Random order. And to girls... Just dont date men with these problem.... x.x

1. SPITTING IN PUBLIC
Okay #1. Worst thing a man can do is spit in public... without looking around... just suck the whole phlegm into the mouth and spit on the concrete floor... DISGUSTING! I mean come on! if you wanna do it so bad... look for a drain or soil ground AND FOR THE LOVE OF GOD don't do it when people are around!!! Seriously sometimes i just walk on a pavement and see those random spit on the ground... and i do my shoes justice to NOT EVER throd on them. I mean someone can fall down and urgh... can't imagine the consequences. And also, when u go to a restaurant or public spitting place... DO NOT SPIT IN THE SINK WHERE PEOPLE ARE NEARBY CONSUMING FOOD!!! gross gross GROSS! Have some respect. And girls, or everyone else... if you see these disgusting men do it... PLAY YOUR PART AND TELL THEM TO NOT DO IT AGAIN! who cares if you embarass them!

2. SMOKING
I hate the smell. And i'm sure 90% of the earth population hates it too. The 10 percent are idiots and irresponsible dumbasses that just loves to polute the world. And make my hair stink. I spent like A LOT on my hair to make it stay clean and smell nice and guys just keep smoking around me leaving their bad breath+smoke essence into my very expensive hair. GROSS. So stop it. If u wanna smoke, go to toilets where everything smells including your smokey ass-breath. And honestly, it doesn't look cool. Black dry lips and brownish teeth... Think about it. Only Hollywood stars can get away with smoking and looking nice at the same time. And for girls who smoke... That's twice the grossness.

3. GUM
I hate gum. It's like chewing on condoms. Totally disgusting. I respect Singapore for banning Gums in the country. Well, precisely, it's okay if it's in the mouth or trash cans... What is gross, is when you randomly spit it on the ground or stick it under chairs or tables that PUBLIC people use too. Come on, be civilized. It's not so hard to keep the wrappings in your pocket and spit the chewed condom into the wrappings before you throw in trash. It's so freakingly annoying to step on gum! imagine, people's saliva + teeth crap stuck on your shoes... especially expensive shoes! And when you randomly touch one when you're watching a movie.... GROSSSSS!!!! TRASH CANS ARE EVERYWHERE!!! Use them!!

4. "PHeeeee WheeeeeT!!!!"
Goodness if i have a penny for all the times guys whistle at me i'd be a freakin gazilionnaire! It is flattering sometimes but not when it goes out of hand and make you feel awkward... And i think seriously, it's old fashioned.. So unless you're a soldier in training who havent seen a girl for 12 months... don't do it. We girls wont fall for you anyway... And weirdly but true... Why do only ugly guys do it...???

5. CURSING
"What the F is your problem? Don't u F-ing S with me or i'll F-ing kill you Son of a B. And don't you F-ing tell me what the F i should do you F-ing C. Go F a W you S old D. Imma S you in the A if you don't F-ing stop S-ing with me. And imma F your S up C with you F-ing W of a B C in your F-ing living room" - Point made -


So... Think about it... I can list a hundred more disgusting habits of a man... But i think these 5 are enough to make a point :)

Friday, June 12, 2009

Fairy Tales and Sad Endings...

Not all fairy tales has a happy ending. Though it might all be flowers and rainbows, some are just told to hurt. Take A little Mermaid for instant, how the mermaid gave everything to pursue the prince she fell in love with, left her home, her family behind only to lose him in the end, and only to die broken hearted and turn into mush in the sea. Or look at Pocahontas, loving a man so different to her culture, finally having to let him go and endure the pain of knowing they will never meet again… Until Disney made a Pocahontas 2 and hooked her up with some new guy… But then again, Disney made Bambi which is just… so… heartbreaking!!! I mean... WTH??? Bambi's mom dies? What kind of a Kid's movie is that???! All these tales, were told to us when we barely understood any word or even know how to walk. And it has, from those early days taught us that reality, no matter how amazingly wonderful it is in the beginning, may turn out to be bitter and hurtful. And to wake up from that, to pick up the broken pieces of the heart and live life, is the ultimate test of belief and faith. We have grown up. We still haven’t learned…

But they are tales… Stories to tell and learn by. So is the life we’re living. No matter how bad the outcome is because of any decision we make, is always a story that we create for ourselves, with an ending that we chose by circumstances. The little mermaid died sacrificing her love to her prince as she witnessed him with another woman and that was her choice. What, in our life, are our options?


Thursday, May 21, 2009

If U Seek Amy, Film Censorship Board of Malaysia!!!

Okay... My other blog about my couch-potatoness...


I just realized that that Malaysian TV sucks! I'm a HUGE fan of Britney Spears and regardless of her personal life, i think she's the most talented awesome female singer/entertainer ever to exist on this planet. Not to mention being beautiful and demonically gorgeous! So i turned to MTV channel and started to watch videos...

Ciara feat Justin Timberlake - Love Sex Magic was played. Cool song... the video is super-sexy. You can see Ciara making a worm out of herself, wiggling her butt between JT's legs and wrapping herself around him all the time. Haha.. If there's a PG-18 ratings, this video should have it... Very sexy.. very... oohs and aahs... Then there were other Hip Hop videos that were just as sexy and revealing... Suddenly there's Britney's new single "If You Seek Amy". Being a crocker-crazy Britney fan I jumped for the remote and turned the volume as loud as i can. Then it happened. Her video was cut off. Next song was Miley Cyrus's The Climb. And i was like "Whadahell???"

I don't get it. I seriously don't get it. Why on hell, heaven or earth's name did they cut it off? Coz of the lyrics? It's just plain stupid coz they played the 5 secs towards the end part before it was cut off and you can obviously still hear the "If You Seek Amy" part being recited over and over again. And haha... Isn't Lady Gaga's "I wanna take a ride on your disco stick" has the same meaning as "If You Seek Amy"? Not to forget Akon's "I wanna make love right now na na". I dont see their songs being banned from the TV. Is it coz of Britney's sexy outfit? Hahaha... That would be a freakin lame excuse because the black dress she wore in it was decent enough to be called a dress compared to the thing Rihanna wore in her song Rehab and they let that video broadcasted. Lame lame lame. I'm just confused on what the guidelines of censorship do malaysian TV follow. It's just stupid. Just because it's Britney and she's famous they banned her video clips. It's plain stupid. I mean what? if kids see the video they would wear something like that? Oh My God people! They don't have to watch her video to dress worse than her. I just wish someone would put an end to this hypocracy (however you spell it) and open their eyes to reality. If U Seek Amy is just a song just like the rest. it just happens to have a very beautiful video and an alternatif meaning depending on how long people havent cleaned their ears...

Anyways, all the songs i mentioned above are awesome so i don't mean they shouldn't be allowed to show on TV. It just sucks knowing that they are allowed to be on TV when my girl Britney is not. And it just shows how unclear TV censorship is in this country. They're gonna see the videos on YouTube anyway so why hide it? Not like a boob is showing or anything... Hypocracy sucks... But it's a decease that has no cure... sigh... Film Censorship Board of Malaysia, If U Seek Amy!

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

I wov CSI!!!


Yeah.. i know... some topic to blog about, huh? Well, being recently graduated and jobless, i became more of a couch potato... well semi-couch potato coz i spent my free time, (which is all the time) in front of the computer or TV. And they played re-runs of CSI : NY except now they replaced it with CSI : Miami... anyway, i got stuck watching CSI everyday and became addicted to it... And yeah, the show is freakin' awesome! but wisely unlogic. I mean, of course we all know that it's just a TV show and murder cases obviously don't get solved in one day, let alone one hour... but it's just the matter of humoring and thinking how funny these unlogicness could be...

First of all, it's seriously magical how every fiber they find in homicide cases... even gross thingies that are like 1mm big can be used as evidence. Meaning, the murderers always leave behind something, even as small as an amoeba that later can be found by those super-smart csi people to be traced back to them... Looking at the carpet of my own house. There's like 10000000 billion particles of crap i dont even know what they are in all sizes. And no matter how hard i vacum-clean the carpet, they're still there (or at least 30% of them). So i was thinking, what if i was murdered and lay there on that carpet, can all those chip left-overs, flees, dust, hair strands and UFOs be used as evidence to find my murderer? And most ridiculously... in one day..? But it's okay, coz it's always fun to watch these people using magic science to find the crap, the one piece of crap that stands out from the rest. Probably screaming "pick me! i'm the killer's boger not hers!!"

Second of all... isn't a science lab, like a sacred place for CSI dudes to do their jobs? Since any skin marks, hair, vapour, steam can spoil the evidence they collected? Okay so the producers made them wear science lab coats and gloves so they look cool and made a whole new evolution to the nerds and geeks fashionline. But what about the hair? Just look at Buenasera's (CSI NY) long curls bouncing all over the place in the science lab. Don't tell me she uses miracle hairspray that confirms her hair is stuck permenantly to her head and it wouldnt tamper with the evidences, which at some time turned out to be skin cells.. (ewwww!!!) yeah okay, so they can eliminate her in any analysis they do (in one hour of investigation, woohoo!) but still, dont people have protocols and rules on what they should wear in science labs? Then again, producers might want them to remain looking pretty for viewers rates...

And thirdly, it's just amazing how CSIs know so much!!! In one episode where this indiana jones lookalike dude gets murdered, all of a sudden Mac Taylor revised history on the spot like he was reading out of a textbook! He just freaking knows everything!!!. I mean come on! And the fact that they know ALL medical term by heart. One mention of a scientific phrase and they know the decease! i'm telling you, without having to research or look it up. Okay fine, probably the writers want to cut it short and didnt show viewers the research and readings but they didnt eliminate the part where it's all done and solved in one sweet day... Hahaha...! seriously i love this show! Those people are geniuses!

Hehe... i know, i'm probably looking like i'm ruining the awesomeness of CSI to everyone. But trust me i'm a huge CSI addict. It's just that some thoughts keep bugging my head and i'm just letting it out. I'm sure i'm not the only one who thinks about this... But in order to enjoy the TV show, my advise is to just don't think about it. I mean, besides being good looking and all (Detective Flack... ahh...), they can still be geniuses... Right?

hehe.. anyways... i love CSI...!